Breaking Bad’s Granite State Broke My Heart: Episode 515 Recap
We’ve all been watching Walter White walk the proverbial plank in these last episodes of Breaking Bad. It’s just a matter of HOW and WHEN as opposed to IF.
I haven’t recapped the past two episodes but each one rendered me LITERALLY unable. I kept telling myself I’d write about them but all I could type was PLMGLFFOJRJFORJREFMRFLFMLEMFL.
*I assume that if you’re reading beyond this point, you aren’t concerned about spoilers.*
I’m STILL reeling from Hank’s death, Walt and Skyler’s knife struggle, his kidnapping of baby Holly and ALLLL the other things from last week that had my heart in my chest. And Sunday’s episode? Well it basically punched me in the gut, slapped me in the face and had me so deep in my feelings that the opposite thing happened. I HAD to write about it. I HAVE FEELINGS!!!
As Anna Gunn was accepting her “Best Supporting Actress” Emmy Award for her role as Skyler White, I was tuned into AMC for one of the most intense hours of television I’ve EVER watched. EVER.
So many moments in this episode pretty much crushed me and had me rendered unable to deal with anything. But here’s 7 very specific gut punches I received.
* Marie’s mourning – My LEAST favorite character on the show is Marie. I’ve never been a fan of her purple-wearing ass. But when she was in the car with the cop assuring her that he will find Hank’s body, my heart broke. The look on her face, knowing her husband and best friend was dead was just soooo heart-wrenching.
* Heisenberg no more – Saul and Walt both called the “vacuum cleaner” guy to fix their life and ended up as temporary roommates because of it. When Walt was telling Saul that he was leaving to give his family a better chance at life and had to be READ FOR FILTH by his now-former lawyer, it was like DAMB!
Walter is so out of touch with life and so unwilling (or unable) to realize the amount of damage that he’s done that he is borderline delusional. He thought him making that phonecall to Skyler would “clear her name” and allow her to use the DRUG MONEY he’s earned. Sir, that joint can’t sit in no Chase account accruing interest! YOU KILLED PEOPLE FOR IT! And got the whole Southwest addicted to bomb ass meth.
But I think the part of this scene that was the most pitiful was when Walt tried to go all Heisenberg on Saul, telling him to come with him on the lam. And before he could back Goodman against the wall, he crumbled on the floor in a cancer-induced coughing fit. Heisenberg no more. *cues violins*
* Skyler’s suffering – We see Saul’s points are perfectly right because Skyler is being interrogated by feds who want information on Walt’s whereabouts and she, of course, knows nothing. And she’s smarter than Walt for at least knowing that she’s up shit’s creek because of this mess he left her in.
Cute blazer, doe!
As if that isn’t bad enough, she’s in a little hotel when she hears movement in baby Holly’s room. I GASPED when she walked in and she was grabbed by a masked man from behind. And that evil summabitch Todd all in her face warning her not to say anything to the cops about “that pretty dark haired lady” that came in the carwash. LYDIA CAN DO TO HELL, DOE!
Skyler’s face! She was just so petrified. When they left and she was able to grab baby Holly, I just wanted to stroke her hair and lie to her that she’ll be ok. The poor woman CANNOT catch a break!
Did you notice that for once, Holly wasn’t in a pink hat? The little girl was wearing a bright yellow one, which in this show means NOTHING good. Read about the theory of colors in Breaking Bad for more.
* Mr. Lambert – Vacuum cleaner dude drops Walt off in a remote cabin in New Hampshire, telling him he is now “Mr. Lambert.” That’s Skyler’s middle name.
He is told not to leave, otherwise he will be caught. All Walt has left now is a barrel of money ($11 million) he cannot use and his Heisenberg hat.
This scene just showed how little the man has left, even though he has what he was originally going after: money. And that money is useless to him. The sadz.
* Jesse’s Ice Scream – Jesse is locked in a hole in the ground and Todd the UNCHILLABLE GOON comes by to drop off some ice cream to him as a pat on the back for cooking 96% pure meth. CAN THE MAN GET SOME SPRINKLES?!? Damb!
As if that wasn’t pitiful enough. Seeing Jesse’s beat down face makes my stomach hurt. Poor Pinkman. But he found the will (or desperation) to escape the locked hole. He ran out of it and towards the fence the neo-nazis surrounded their place with and as he climbed, they showed up behind him.
All I could tweet was:
— Awesomely Luvvie (@Luvvie) September 23, 2013
Because I knew there’d be hell to pay. And I wasn’t ready for whatever form it’d come in.
Todd goes to Andrea’s (Jesse’s ex-girlfriend) house and tells her to come out because Jesse is in the car. I kept saying “no no no no no.” So when her back was turned and a bullet went through her head, I SCREAMED along with Jesse.
Jesse’s screams BROKE. MY. HEART. Even more than the death of Andrea. The fact that they made him watch this woman he loved DIE as a result of HIS desperation to be free from them.
YOU SON OF A BITCH, TODD!!! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!! AND YOU TOO UNCLE JACK!!! *cries*
Also, is that little boy Brock gonna wake up to find his mama deader than dead on his front porch?? *cries more* I’m so unable to DEAL still! SO. DAMB. UNABLE! This moment CRUSHED me like a little mosaic tile and I am STILL reeling.
* Lambert to Heisenberg – A month has passed and Walt is trapped in the cabin, living in a jail of his own doing, basically. He’s grown a beard and has lost so much weight that his wedding ring won’t stay on his finger. After hearing about his family struggling to survive and Skyler working taxi dispatch to make money, Walt gets the bright idea that he can make use of the money in the barrel by mailing it to his son Flynn via one of his friends. The fact that he is still THIS delusional is just tragic because once again, he thinks he can fix it with money. Well, he thinks he can FIX IT. And he cannot.
And his conversation with his son was really interesting to see. Walt LOVES his family but he still won’t acknowledge that he is no longer in their heart. He’s done so much that is now hurting them and dude thinks just because his motives might have been to provide for them, they can let him cook (ha!) for all the terrible stuff he’s done. NO, SIR! NAWL!
So when he calls the police to give himself up, it’s of a man rejected and dejected. But when he hears his Grey Matter partners talmbout how he didn’t have anything to do with the company’s success, they lit the fire he needed. Because Walter White is mainly driven by ego.
That is the face of a man who just snapped. Walter is fresh out of dambs to give. Now he has his name to avenge. Forget the fact that his family was suffering ALL because of him and his antics. Nope.
One more episode left to go and I cannot even DEAL with how nervous I am. I already know I’m going to cry. Partly because one of the best TV shows EVER is ending. But also because no matter who is left standing, there will still be lots of grief.
Walter White is already a dead man and what we’re just waiting for is HOW he is going to meet his end. Most of us think Jesse is going to die but I think everyone is still holding out a piece of hope that maybe he’ll be the last man standing. Although, Jesse is already a shell of a man and his survival might actually be more painful than if he just dies. He deserves to be put out his misery because he’s suffered SO MUCH. I will WEEP for Pinkman the most, I think. Because no matter what happens, he loses. In fact, they ALL lose.
Breaking Bad has made it clear that there will be no winners, just those who get to see another day.
Five more days until Vince Gilligan and his team crush my spirit. I’m holding my breath.
What did you think about this episode and what are your predictions for the finale?